Cough like im dying.... actually is not really coughing but throat vv dry and got alot of like deep phlegm so when cough is like vv pain (chest area). Nose block too but better after taking medicine. So today no work for me! Decided to rest well to prepare for sat and mon work.
Is falling for me easy? Or isit just easy to fall for any person but the maintaining is the hard part?
Results back.... Not good... Ok maybe not as good as i thought it would be. Actually is not that bad compared with my past results. At least i got an A-!
I thought i feel better due to distractions... But happen to hear some songs and feelings just gushed back... Im tired of crying....
Im not any pretty gal but just because im guai im attractive?? *Faint* Headache... Too much distractions and too much internal thoughts and struggles... Plus not enough slp and too much 'entertaining' to do. Im brain dead.
Haha yesday was not as hectic as i imagine. The crowd came in after countdown lah. But yup had fun because i get to take order!! Haha kind of fun. To no need rely on the senior and just hurrily help out. Starting to love the job!! :p
Oh and weili is so zhun!! Haha he just anyhow say maybe pple will get my no then i was telling him pls lah i not any pretty girl plus there so many sexy babes playing around why would any sane guy ask me. Then he say see loh. Haha and guess the guy drunk le. Cause he did ask for my no. By the time he wake up he should have forgotten bout me :)
Haha 2nd day has been better. Maybe because i decided to focus on work and not think of other stuff. Of cos on off will but yesterday was busier since know better the work. But i realise MOS is real fun!! Haha nxt time can go club there. Somemore i know the backcrew wahaha.
Xmas coming... i will be busy serving and squeezing ard and kena elbowing by pple. What will you be doing.... Will definitely think of you.. But i guess you will not. You wil be having fun somewhere with the gang rite? So wish you to see this.
Yesday just start work. Really long hours. Reach home at 7plus 8am. Very tiring got to stand all the time. Worse part of all, everything doesnt tally with what the agency told us. She say there will be shift work from 6pm to 7am but no i dont think so. From tonight onwards everyone will just die working. And!! They only count our pay till 530am!! What the * loh.
Having a headache now. Not exactly due to work but more of the mind. They keep on stressing how hard the work is and how the crowd would just make us not want to work there anymore. Its true that there are alot of pple and very tiring (given the things we do and the DURATION) but for me the reason abit different.
When i was working yesday, i felt dots cos the whole world is having fun while im doing work. But the main thing is. The crowder the place is, the more lonely i feel. Felt so lost and empty. Actually is sadness. Im so afraid to go to work again because im scared i would not be able to take it. The place actually remind me of and everything said. And i cannot imagine is having fun and drinking with friends. Esp during xmas eve. Ok i think im going to be sick soon. Headache and heavy head. Like the feeling you are going to have a fever kind.
Got to go prepare for work le.... I dont want to work
Haha got the server job at MOS! From tonight onwards wun be at home at night till 2 weeks later. Its just a plain waiteressing job to be exact. But its a good avenue for me to be free. At least i should be super tired to think and just numb myself with all the things haha. Heard that this kind of job is really really tiring. Well all the better right? Haha i better catch some sleep before my body clock turns!!
Kind of look forward to it yet feels so scared and lonely. Dont know anymore.
Ok tons of things to update on. 1st this is the darling i bought in the sitex 07 fair! Haha i think this is a very good deal im sure everyone will agree. This is a sony 4gb mp3/mp4. Original price $399 but i got it at $199 only!! Whats more they actually gave me the premium package which include lanyard, screen cleaner plus protector, case and earphone free! Too bad the last white one was 'snatched' by the lady just before me haha. But i love this sweet pink too! Wanted to get camera also but no money haha.. Im a poor girl..
Ok actually dont really need a camera. I wanted one for a reason but now the reason cant be applied anymore.
Then i went clubbing with cheyin!! 1st clubbing experience. Ok then my mood wasnt really the happy go for fun kind but did find it interesting. Not the part where we got to queue like one hour to get into zouk, nor going to the arena and mos with weird age group. But i think that watching pple enjoying their time and me drinking seems fun. Of cos the after effects are like shit. I was sleepy giddy and puke next morning. Although im sure i will go nxt time but the reason is definitely not bcos clubbing is fun. Haha
Lets see what else.... alot alot of events ba. But i forgot and think should be not very significant. Will blog if remember.
Lastly... Im really tired... alot of complex thoughts and feelings only one should and would know. I will live.
Not well... No matter which aspect you are looking from. Talking bout it i feel like puking and stomach very pain. Diarrhea again.. Somemore been losing weight... No appetite of cos but it seems like my weight just keep dropping no matter what i eat. Very tired all the time... Guess cant slp well or eyes too 'tired'. Feel quite drain....
Long time no blog... Cant really blog.. Ok i really dont feel well. Sian....
Too much pain.... It seems like torturing myself helps.. The greater im torturing my body the lesser pain i feel.. Or maybe too tired and too busy so the pain feels lessen. Haha i dono what im talking bout.
Dont know to publicise my blog or not... It wasnt meant for others.... But... I dont know... Guess i will just put for awhile... In hope someone will realise... Like i say its not meant for the world but one....
